November has come and gone

Well, thanks to Ashli I have a place to blog besides my myspace page. Here we are on top of a new month and looking back on November. I have to say so much has happened this month and I am kinda glad it is over but nervous to see what happens in the coming months. First, I found out that my mom's almost 2 year battle with cancer is coming to an end. I knew this was coming but it still came as a shock to me. I began reflecting on life itself and realized that I had things to do with and for my mom before she is gone. I decided that I was going to make the dreaded call to her dad which I have not spoken to in 7 years! He was friendly at first but wanted to know why I was calling. I explained that momma was not doing well and that I feel that he needs to put his hard stubborn feelings aside and try to make a mends with momma. He harshly said I was 7 years too late. Talk about a knife through the heart! I explained to mom what I had attempted to do and she said she was proud that I at least made an attempt and that it is his loss and she now knows how much he REALLY does care! During this time my brother and I have had a lot of bonding moments and he has realized that he wants to take momma to pick cotton. That is something that she has wanted to do her entire life and has never gotten the chance to do so. At this point I can cry at the drop of a hat! Less than a week after I found out about momma I was given the call the day before Thanksgiving letting me know that I have tested positive for Cervical Cancer. I could not believe I was getting a call like this! I have an appointment to have biopsy's done to see what stage I am in. They say that more than likely I will have to go through some surgery. I have fought endometriosis since 2004 and have been put through menopause 2 times with oral medications and monthly shots. I was told if the endometriosis didn't slow down my only other option was a total hystrectomy (not sure how to spell it sorry) and I have dodged that bullet as long as I can. Now I am looking at that final option again. I dont think I will be able to dodge that bullet as easily though. I was hoping to keep my baby parts just in case for the future. I have one beautiful daughter Averi Diane that turned 5 in August. I am recently divorced but I dont want to take that option away! So .... the good news is that my divorce after 20 months of waiting is finally over! I am officially a Hataway again! So much has happened in the last month that sometimes it is very hard to swallow. I will probably blog on here more than on my myspace page since most of my family members do not have myspace.